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xavieralexay:

In response to this question on The Art of Transliness

The changes to my temper, patience and verbal inclination was somewhat of a complex issue. Taking into account the fact that it was the beginning of, what I viewed to be, a life changing event, my attitude began to change as I began my transition.

I was finally taking control of something in my life, which in turn made me want to take control of other areas of my life. I became less tolerant of people and their antics, which also shortened my temper.

But being that my body was having a new hormone introduced into its system, it did in fact affect my moods, and I was unable to properly identify and regulate them. I experienced myself emotionally in a way that was different.

On top of those issues, as my transition progressed in the earlier stages, I was still growing tired of having been trans in the first place. My transition was not only  a source of happiness for me but also that of shame and frustration. This did manifest itself in my daily interactions with people.

As for communication, I am naturally inclined to desire time spent alone and less time spent communicating. However, I actually desire more communication now.

I believe their is undoubtedly some chemical influence to these changes. But as we all know, it affects everyone differently.

I had a lot of the same effects. Even now I feel like I’m really short tempered and I tend to get frustrated with things I can’t control. Shorter fuse… More head strong and I feel like I need to verbalize my opinions and feelings a lot more than I did as a socialized woman.